Monday, February 20, 2012


apa ada dalam hati
semua karut
tak semua akan dinikmati
 hey hey
kau siapa mahu tentukan semua

puas kau guna
habis kau robek
kau tinggal saja
mana hasilnya

jangan sentuh lagi
biarkan saja dengan anganku
terbang dengan mimpi sang awan
hati ini bukan milikku lagi

pergi! pergi!
hati tak akan menagih simpati
tabah dengan timbunan kekasaran
kuat hadapi kenyataan dunia
apa lagi yang tinggal
cuma hati yang berkecai

Sunday, February 19, 2012

kepala dh la saket hati pon saket jugak..


arini bangun awal, ingat nak breakfast awal
bila da turun tgk bwh saji..ape pon xde
saba je la

kepala pon tgh saket lagi
gagahkan jugak g dapor nk goreng drummet
tyme to bibik duk ciapkan bahan kt dpor utk masak tgh hari
hati tetibe saket je bila tgk dia
xtaw la kenapa
jarang jugak bcakap dgn dia
sbb nye kalo bcakap dgn dia kompom saket hati


amek kuali panaskan minyak
sementara panaskan minyak to kua g ruang tamu jap
dgr lah si bibik ni panggil
buat derk' je la
then teringat kuali atas dapor
tgk-tgk berasap!!
perrghh~ hati ni pon berasap-asap jugak!
ape ke bengap bibik ni
bukan nk kecikkan api ke ape
dia bia je mcm to
kalo setengah jam baru aku p dapor agaknye ape jadi ntah
 dia ckp da panggil aku

saket betol jiwa aku ni
sabo je la
ni sebab aku jarang bsembang dgn dia
cakap pon menyakitkan hati
lain org tanya lain yg dijawab
 bibik oh bibik!

saket kepala aku ni makin menjadi
tambah pulak saket hati!

p/s : kenapa la bibik aku mcm ni..
da duk dgn aku 2tahun da tp bhasa belit2..xpaham aku..
bhasa standard aku guna pulak dia pham xpham je..

Sunday, February 12, 2012

Married or not you should read this...

Entry kali ni di copy dr satu sumber...
“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed -dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband….

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you do, you just might save a marriage. Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

Saturday, February 11, 2012



arini baru nk update pasal render/superimpose.
sedikit blur sbb kena post entry pasal render/superimpose.
sbb ade superimpose..

oke step render objek atau persekitaran.
untuk menampakkan objek dan persekitaran lebih real.
menulis dlm bhasa melayu..*pening da nk pk ayat.. haha

1. Pilih material editor untuk memilih material untuk memberi effect kpd objek atau persekitaran.
2. pilih default (bebola) > get material
*pilih material drpd library of material
 3.pilih apa-apa material yg berkenan/sesuai dgn objek atau persekitaran. *cth Bricks_yellow (standard)

 4. Pilih icon render untuk preview.

Thursday, February 9, 2012



untuk post lately akan byk pasal assignment 3D studio max
so entry kali create DOME " kubah "
1. Pick Box to create the bottom Plate
2. create a small Box at the corner of the bottom plate
3. create 3 more copies of small Box and name as Base (1-4)

4. Create cylinder in the center of the base and name as Pillar 1
5. create 3 more copies of Pillar 1 and name as Pillar (2-4)

6. create a copy of bottom plate and place it on top of the pillars.

7. create hemisphere and name as Dome.
8. Create sphere and align vertically with the flat surface of Dome.

9. pick compound object

10. Choose Dome and pick Boolean button > pick operand B and choose sphere to make a hole.
11. choose Dome and select Edit Mesh Modifier

12. adjust the dome by picking vertex button

13. Adding details to the Dome, create sphere on top of the Dome.
14. Create cone and move the Cone on top of the Sphere.

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

snowman 3d Studiomax


assignment pertama untuk subjek 3D Studiomax " Snowman "

1. to make head and body - use geometry > standard primitive and choose sphere, group them to avoid from separate.2. buttons and eyes for snowman also using sphere.

3. choose cone to make the nose.

4. cylinder to make the hat for snowman.

5. for hand use loft.

loft :

1. use geometry > shapes and choose line, make the shape that you like for the hand.
2. create circle.
3. use geometry > choose compound object.
4. click line > loft.

5. get shape choose circle, done for snowman hand.

6. duplicate the hand > shift and drag the hand.

last but not least render the snowman to make it more in beauty.
But, i know mine just a simple one..
hehhehe.. adiosss....